The Robert Pattinson Diaries — The Harper’s Bazaar Photo Shoot with Kristen Stewart
A Fictitious Entry that Chronicles the Thirst of Robert Pattinson aka Edward Cullen for Kristen Stewart aka Bella Swan
I swallowed my bile and uttered the words that made my innards writhe and coil. “Nothing. I am single. Almost everything that comes out about my private life is false. I think it happens because there’s really not much to say about what I’m doing.”
I could only speak the untruths because Kristen had requested me to, but, if I had my way…
I remembered the first time I actually met her in the flesh during the Twilight audition. I had described the moment with paltry sentences that did not reflect the magnitude of the moment. “Kristen was very different from how I expected the girl who played Bella would be. I was kind of intimidated.”
Was she the mythological being that the Twilight script had called for? Was she in truth a vampire who had cloaked herself in the guise of a human?
My guts were ready to explode, so, I followed the falsehood with what actually occurred, “While I’m filming, I live a practically secluded life in the hotel. I come out only to work, and, sometimes to go out for dinner. But, if you read the magazines, it seems that I lead a frenetic night life.”
I couldn’t help my frustration from creeping into my voice at not being able to do the simplest things with Kristen, from taking a walk with her hand held in mine or to take her out for a romantic dinner, “It is damned difficult to go out with a girl. Now, if I go out with a girl, I’ll immediately get photographed with her, then they’ll begin to pursue her on Facebook, and, if they find her email, they might send hate mails and insult her. In the end, she’ll wind up hating me.”
The thought was unbearable. The reality of her love enveloped me, and yet, love is coupled with hate. I savagely stamped out the notion that perhaps one day that love may well turn into its other extreme.
If she were a vampire, it would explain this bewildering response that I have never experienced in my whole existence. She brought out something in me that was both frightening and exhilarating.
Then I was asked if I would lie to protect those whom I loved. “Well, yeah, I think I probably would do lie.” I belatedly realized that I had uttered the truth. I strove to correct my blunder. “I mean, it’s always probably a mistake. I mean, as it shows in New Moon, I lie all the time to protect people. I think I’m protecting people.”
Kristen had unearthed an unrestrained being from deep within me. A primitive beast.
Ah, going against my very nature was terribly confusing. And hard. I don’t want to live in a secret relationship for far too long. It took too much effort. I finished with quiet conviction, “I think you’re generally better off telling the truth. It’s always gonna bite you later on, I think.”
Kristen is a vampire. I had lost my life the moment I laid my eyes on her.
“She’s a unique girl,” I stated simply to the interviewer. “You really don’t meet many people like Kristen.”
For now, I will honor her request to keep our romantic relationship a secret. With fortitude, I will bear the incessant hammering of my conscience, for her life and mine are intertwined. What happens to her would affect me deeply. And, I do not wish to be the cause of any harm that may befall any tiny little part of her.
I was bound to her forever. I was hers. And my soul knew it.
Photo Credits
Photos Courtesy of Harper’s Bazaar
Photos: Mark Seliger
Photos Uploaded from Lainey Gossip
Lorna Lopez aka ATwilightKiss Notes
A Compilation of Robert Pattinson Quotes and a Diary I strung together actual quotes from interviews and an earlier Robert Pattinson diary I wrote.
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November 8th, 2009 at 11:08 am
OMG! Simply beutiful!! It’s awesome! I love it!!! As always!!!! Thank you Lorna for creatin simethin so Pretty!
November 8th, 2009 at 11:38 am
so cute !!!!!!!!!
November 8th, 2009 at 11:56 am
Lorna, you just killed me with this quote:
“I was bound to her forever. I was hers. And my soul knew it.”
November 8th, 2009 at 1:16 pm
always looking forward for your “diaries” article…love it sooooo much..thanks lorna…
November 8th, 2009 at 5:44 pm
Hehe possesive Rob is uber hot! As well as your diaries. This one is simply amazing. Also, that pic of Rob and Kris on the motorcycle, Rob looks like he’s looking at Kris’ legs. I don’t blame him, they are killer legs
November 8th, 2009 at 7:13 pm
I respect Kristen’s wish to keep her “relationship” private because if they will admit it,i believe there will be a non stop “they broke up/they reconciled/cheating on either
or both sides “in tabloids/gossip mags which i think would be more stressful than what they are going through right now- without out rightly admitting the status of their relationship.Look at Brangelina.Every week the rags keep on reporting that they broke up then got back together and this issue is always there for several years now.That’s more stressful.I think vicious gossips specially on cheating by either partner could also destroy a relationship even if it’s just a gossip.So i guess they are better off by keeping it private….at least for now because once Robsten will admit they are a couple,rumors on cheating will start then break up and reconciliation,etc.
November 8th, 2009 at 7:42 pm
Wow,wow wow. That is so awesome, seriously lorna you should make a book about love..or robsten! I will buy it and made it as favorite book!!
November 8th, 2009 at 7:57 pm
Whao Lorna that was so beautiful and even more that quote:
“I was bound to her forever. I was hers. And my soul knew it.”
Lorna I’ve got great news!!! I just found out that i’m going to the New Moon UK party on 11th november which means i’m gonna see rob, kris , taylor and Chris weitz i’m so happy I cant believe i’ll see them
November 8th, 2009 at 8:44 pm
Kristen in the motorbike, staring at the lens just seem to say “He’s is mine, don’t need to ask for any confirmation, are you blind? Well, someone said that even Stevie Wonder can see your hidden romantic wild ride.
November 8th, 2009 at 9:17 pm
look at rob in the motorbiki he´s staring at her leg and kristen is like “he´s my man”!
love this diarie
November 8th, 2009 at 11:08 pm
one word. KILIG!
November 9th, 2009 at 12:00 am
wow this is so beautiful it makes me wanna cry!!!?!??!
this is sooo hottt!!!!!!
November 9th, 2009 at 12:02 am
wow this is so beautiful it makes me wanna cry!!!?!??!
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this is so hott!! its perfect!!
cant wait til they film Breaking Dawn!! but it’ll be sad cuz it’ll be the last
November 9th, 2009 at 6:51 am
Laura, congrats! How did u do it? Did u win the competition?
November 9th, 2009 at 7:54 am
@Kenya, are you from Kenya?
Lorna, 5/5 as usual
November 9th, 2009 at 9:40 am
The photoshoot. It’s very prominent deep blue, black and white. Hm. not sure with the rest (have to stare more intently) #3 caught my eye. Not sure with the roses, though.
Fave:
“Kristen is a vampire. I had lost my life the moment I laid my eyes on her.”
@Laura
Oh, yeah! Go baby, go, go!
November 10th, 2009 at 7:05 am
Thanx purpleapple and mayhemonte
yes I did win a competition I feel so lucky1!!
I cant wait to see them and of course I will tell u everything that happened!!! Oh and pictures too and videos
November 10th, 2009 at 3:45 pm
Omg! lorna that was so awesome ! it was like you actually know them
I always love your RP diaries! this was one of your best works ever…
November 10th, 2009 at 3:49 pm
congratulation lorna you are a great writer
the way your composition flows its amazing.
November 10th, 2009 at 6:33 pm
Everyone, thank you so much for your appreciative and encouraging words! They mean a lot to me and give me the energy to keep on writing…
November 11th, 2009 at 12:49 am
This is my first visit but I found your site beutiful I’m not good at english language at all but this text is realy beutiful & amazing
November 12th, 2009 at 3:22 am
***** five stars as usually lorna!
*fingers crossed*