The Robert Pattinson Diaries — In Love and Lust with Kristen Stewart
A Fictitious Entry that Chronicles the Thirst of Robert Pattinson for Kristen Stewart
Video Courtesy of Vanity Fair
A Fictitious Entry that Chronicles the Thirst of Robert Pattinson for Kristen Stewart
This vast land of wasted grass had become my torture chamber. Vanity Fair photographer Peggy Sirota had become my jailer and tormentor, and, she, in turn, would use Kristen to be the fist, whip, knife and hammer that would alternately pummel, slice and bludgeon me until I bled dry.
Lulling me into a delusion that I would be able to endure the hours of Kristen’s scent, warmth and presence, I willingly went along with her directions of faux fighting with my beloved, a concept so alien that I found difficulty mustering the necessary aggression to kick and punch the air between us, since all I yearned to do at that moment was to enclose her in my arms and rain her lovely visage with tender kisses.
I let my devouring gaze settle on Kristen. The Vanity Fair staff had teased her chestnut hair to a tousled mess that framed her beautiful face sexily. Her breasts rose gently from the black curved frame of her strapless dress, while her favorite Converse sneakers adorned her feet, leaving a long length of leg visible. Kristen simply looked adorably sensual.
And then, the photographer gave the directions that made my heart stand still, before it started beating with a thunderous pace that the sound drowned my ears. I tried to clear my mind as Kristen prepared to jump into my arms (go to 14:50).
Peggy Sirota knew just how to torture me. This woman had an Edward Cullen ability to read my mind. No, an Aro like quality to delve into my innermost thoughts and use that knowledge with an unerring accuracy akin to Jane’s unmerciful method in order to twist my exposed nerves to a level of pain that was somewhat alleviated by the pleasure it created.
I cradled the spheres of Kristen’s behind, and let my fingers sink into her flesh. I stopped breathing as my love leaned forward to settle more comfortably into my makeshift crib. Ah, the torment of having her so near. Her creamy arms enveloped me. Her breasts were at eye level. Her neck was in a beautiful arch. I could make out the blue veins under the whiteness of her skin.
Then Peggy requested me to join my hands so that I could shift Kristen higher in my clutch. Oh God! Is this woman a sadist? Does she not see that I’m being torn apart right before her very eyes? Does she not sense that every nerve of my being was on fire? Does she not marvel that I have not shouted my pain to the cerulean sky?
I gritted my teeth, banked the tormented fire in my eyes, and schooled my features into a cold mask. I did as I was told, and felt the scissored grip of Kristen’s legs behind me. We were joined in a very intimate embrace that all lovers have performed. I felt like growling as I imagined plunging myself into her softness in a cadence that was ancient as time.
Photo Courtesy of Vanity Fair
Her essence was creating havoc and chaos, and, if I did not put some distance between us immediately, I don’t know what I might be driven to do.
It was ungentlemanly, but, as soon as I could, I heaved her out of my circled limbs and took several steps backward away from her.
Vanity Fair photographer Peggy Sirota then gave me a respite. Cam Gigandet, the actor who played the vampire James, joined us and was given the task of laying his head on Kristen’s lap, while I hovered over the pair in a bent over position.
And then it was all over too soon. Peggy Sirota had me sit on the dust facing away from Kristen, but, my relief was short lived. Her directions had barely sank into my consciousness before I felt Kristen’s yielding form enfolding me from behind (go to 25:12).
As my back eagerly ensconced her softness, I let my mind wander, imagining that, as my wife, Kristen would routinely wrap her arms around me and inquire about mundane details that bound a man and a woman. Then it would also be natural for me to haul her malleable figure from behind to my lap where she would be inundated with my passionate attention.
Photo Courtesy of Vanity Fair
Then it was back again to a fallacy of antagonism that had Kristen and I crouching while facing each other. Noticing my aversion for anything that required any form of aggression against Kristen, Peggy Sirota directed her to straighten up while I remained folded in half, instructing me to go closer until my head butted against her pliable flesh (go to 48:30).
I gripped my weakened knees, and I couldn’t help scowling slightly as I inhaled the alluring scent of her skin. I wanted to collapse at her feet and grasp her by the hips, then lay my trembling cheek against her abdomen, a classic pose of servitude, which she seemed to inspire in me with no effort at all. I am virtually a slave to her every whim.
Photo Courtesy of Vanity Fair
The ordeal continued, where, under the weaving limbs of a tree, unimaginable delicate torment would be carried out.
While Kristen’s feet were entangled in the makeshift swing, Peggy Sirota asked me to slip my hands through her arms and let her upper body rest on my torso (go to 31:57).
As I gently sank to my knees to hold her graceful figure, the seemingly simple pose was extremely dangerous because it awakened a keening hunger to claim Kristen.
Everything about her was pulling me in. From her passion and commitment to her craft, her melodious alto voice, her sudden insightful humor, the small of her back to the way she fit perfectly into my arms.
Spontaneously, my fists opened into palms and our fingers intertwined in a classic lovers’ hold that can denote the innocent delight of touching a beloved to the bliss at the peak of physical gratification.
A vision so clear coalesced in my mind’s eye that I felt a stab of recognition for a deeply embedded yearning. My breath was stolen from me at the gut-wrenching truth of it — an image of Kristen and I in our bed together, propped by the headboard and a mountain of white pillows, my limbs spread to accommodate her dainty form in between while she rested her back against my chest.
One pair of hands, hers and mine, interlaced, which allowed the fingers of my other hand to caress her lightly, watching it trace her delicate skin as we both basked in the serenity of the morning sunlight streaming through the windows.
Misery and torment coupled with exquisite joy. I hoped that my inner turmoil would be mistaken for an attempt to be a brooding irascible vampire.
Photo Courtesy of Vanity Fair
The afternoon proved that Peggy Sirota was a master at inflicting agony. She had me writhing from sensual misery to piercing tenderness.
I stole a quick glance at Kristen, and saw her clinging to her best friend, Nikki Reed, who instinctively knew that Kristen needed some form of comfort, so she started playing around with her — dancing, hugging and kissing her repeatedly.
A savage pleasure tore through me with the thought that Kristen was also affected, that I was not alone in my torment (go to 57:10).
A monstrous urge to pull Nikki away and replace her ministrations with my hands and my lips suddenly ripped through me. I turned my head away so that I would no longer see them so clearly, focusing instead on gaining back a certain level of equilibrium by laughing genially with Kellan, Peter and Elizabeth.
Then, an epiphany stole over me. Kristen did feel and see the infinite possibilities between us, and she was fearful of it, which drove her to attempt to gain a pitiful distance between us at the end of the Vanity Fair photo shoot. And, even as I laughed for the iconic photograph, a part of me grimly wondered if I had the fortitude to endure the trials ahead.
The cast of Twilight: Robert Pattinson (Edward), Elizabeth Reaser (Esme), Kellan Lutz (Emmett), Peter Facinelli (Dr. Cullen), Nikki Reed (Rosalie), Kristen Stewart (Bella), Ashley Greene (Alice), Jackson Rathbone (Jasper), Cam Gigandet (James), Edi Gathegi (Laurent), Taylor Lautner (Jacob), Rachelle Lefevre (Victoria). Photograph by Peggy Sirota.
Photo Courtesy of Vanity Fair
Lorna Lopez aka ATwilightKiss Notes What I found very interesting with the unedited Vanity Fair photo shoot behind the scenes video is the fact that Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson were in front of the lens 90% of the time. The edited video that Vanity Fair initially released gave no idea regarding the width and breath that Peggy Sirota asked the Twilight lead stars to accomplish.
Congratulations to the Vanity Fair team! And, Ms. Sirota, if you ever come across this, I’m sure you understand that the tongue in cheek references to your person are nothing more than a device to highlight the fictional “thirst’ of Robert Pattinson for Kristen Stewart. 
Thank you! 
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December 30th, 2008 at 8:36 pm
Oh my gosh, I LOVE ROBERT PATTINSON! And for me to read what he thinks of Kristen is just…
So I hope he understands. Please. And thanks for the sexy pictures of Robert. Love him loads even in Harry Potter. I loved him so nothing’s going to change that. X X X
January 9th, 2009 at 8:33 pm
Wow…. For a moment, I thought Rob wrote this but I assume you wrote it Lorna, if I’m correct, feel to correct me if I am wrong… Nevertheless, these are some heavy and deep words as oppose to the two actors and theirs roles… but hey it sure drives the fans crazy…nicely done
January 9th, 2009 at 11:48 pm
Hi Jorja84. Thank you for your kind words.
And please note that right after the title I’ve put a disclaimer — “A Fictitious Entry that Chronicles the Thirst of Robert Pattinson for Kristen Stewart.” So yes, I was the one who wrote it based on my observations and flights of imagination.
February 1st, 2009 at 2:34 am
17:o4 i herd one of the songs from raving rabbits wii. The story was great. I really liked it. Thanks for posting it.
February 1st, 2009 at 8:12 am
You’re welcome, Vanessa. I’m glad you liked it.
February 2nd, 2009 at 4:57 am
OMG!!!! Great job. I actually thought he wrote it. It was driving me mad, considering how much i love him. Great job. It was a relief when i found out it wasn’t him who wrote it. But hey, it could be possible he really did think that. They look so cute together.!!!!!
I LOVE ROBERT PATTINSON!!!!!!!
February 2nd, 2009 at 7:35 am
Thanks, Marie. I’d like to think Rob did have those thoughts. A lot of it is based on Rob’s interviews and how he would describe his fascination for Kristen.
By the way, all of the Robert Pattinson Diaries are labeled “A Fictitious Entry that Chronicles the Thirst of Robert Pattinson for Kristen Stewart,” so none of the posts in the category are penned by him.
And, Rob’s friend said that he has no online presence, so it is doubtful that anyone can find anything written by him personally.
This was confirmed by Rob’s manager in an official statement:
Rob has neither an official nor personal page on Myspace, Facebook or any other networking site. His fans should not be fooled by anyone representing themselves as Rob or claiming that they have a sanctioned Robert Pattinson site.
Thanks again.
February 3rd, 2009 at 5:35 pm
Thank you for it. I like it so much. It’s so real and romantic, would you write a diary of Kristen? I’am waiting…Plzzz
February 3rd, 2009 at 7:39 pm
Thank you, Spark.
Regarding the Kristen Stewart diaries, I’ll think about it, but, honestly, I still have the Eclipse and Breaking Dawn scripts to write, so I’m not sure that’s going to happen any time soon. But thanks for requesting it.
February 20th, 2009 at 1:23 pm
Thank you so much.
I love it.
February 20th, 2009 at 1:26 pm
Thank you so much for New Moon Scripts.
You really fulfilled my craziness of Twilight.
Love you
February 20th, 2009 at 7:36 pm
You’re welcome, Rosetta!
February 23rd, 2009 at 1:11 pm
You should look into writing a romance novel on “The Robert Pattinson Diaries-In love and lust with Kristine Stewart” maybe you could use their character names instead, but you definitely could write some juicy bedroom scenes-which the Twilight series has an upsetting lack of. The series needs some Johanna Lindsey love scenes.
March 12th, 2009 at 10:45 pm
WOW! I love it i love it so much!!!
March 15th, 2009 at 5:53 am
I’ll consider that HatetoLoveIt. Thanks for the suggestion.
And, I’m really glad you loved it, Ana. Try to check out the other Diary entries.
March 18th, 2009 at 12:35 am
Amazing.. You have a talent at writing these things. They jsut feel like thay really could happend. As I said Amazing!
March 18th, 2009 at 4:10 pm
Wow, well Lorna, you have a big imagination!
I love this story! I save this page on my cell so i can read it anytime.
Is it true that robert pattinson read this article? I want to know his reaction. He must be blush. Hohoho
great job, Lorna! keep it up!
March 18th, 2009 at 4:45 pm
That was what I was hoping to do, mayaaa, make it seem so real you feel it could happen. Thanks!
Wow! You must have one of those high tech phones, Al, to be able to save the page. That’s so great!
Regarding Rob, please let me clarify that there is NO proof whatsoever that he has ever read this or any post in ATwilightKiss. But, since he surfs, you never know… I’m keeping my fingers crossed that I will be surprised by an email in my inbox one day…
March 18th, 2009 at 10:16 pm
hahahaha you’re right, lorna
wonder he read this article and realized that he wants to be with kris (you know what i mean, huh?) . ooppss hohohoho :p
March 19th, 2009 at 3:04 am
Hi Lorna! Love, love all your posts on twilightkiss.com! You have a big imagination! I love this story! You’re an amazing writer!! I’m such a fan of yours! As for rob and kristen I so wish that one day they will end up together! LOVE conquers all! hahaha.. I read somewhere that Rob reads fanfiction site and I hope he is reading yours! (Hello Rob!) that would be amazing!
http://popwatch.ew.com/popwatch/2009/03/robert-pattinso.html
“Despite tabloid reports … and read all the gossip blogs and Twilight fan fiction. “It’s surprisingly hard-core. And very well written,” he says of the latter. I’m guessing by “hard-core” he means he only reads the MA stories, too?…”
can’t wait for more posts!
March 19th, 2009 at 9:08 am
hey i didn’t read all of this but all i can say is that kristen preety yada,yada,yada…but robert is so cute in the 2… picture his eyes are G-O-R-G-E-O-U-S!And of course let’s not forhet his godess like face!
Nice job,the photographers and wardrobe,make-up…
you all rock,peace out!
March 19th, 2009 at 11:32 am
Good job
March 19th, 2009 at 12:37 pm
Al, I just want Rob to be happy, with whoever. I’m on Team Robert.
But, I’ll keep on poking fun at Kristen about the “friends” thing. HARHARHAR!
That’s right, Josie. I read that too in his GQ interview. That’s why I’d like to think he passes by and gets to grin, chuckle, or laugh out loud from the ATwilightKiss posts.
I agree with you, madason, that the Vanity Fair team did a fantastic job.
Thanks, Darcy!
March 19th, 2009 at 9:01 pm
hohohohho can i join with you?
GO TEAM ROBERT!
Obsessive Edward Cullen Disorder
Obsessive Robert Pattinson Disorder
LOL
March 24th, 2009 at 3:55 am
Okay…I finally broke down and read this. Hot. I wish we had the audio to hear what they were saying to one another.
March 25th, 2009 at 6:38 pm
I’m from Norway and I’m 11 years old XD
I found this website on google.no
I REALY LOVE TWILIGHT<3
March 25th, 2009 at 9:02 pm
Twilight-lover, it’s great to know you love Twilight. Please make sure your mom and dad know you are visiting this site. And, remember, you may read some of the posts, but, not all, okay? Please ask your mom and dad if you are not sure about some things. Thank you.
March 29th, 2009 at 5:43 am
Oh my gosh, you write so well! I love it! I’m also on team Robert and I hope they end up together. When I first saw the movie, I immediately thought there was something there between them. I have no doubt Rob can and will continue to charm Kristen. Everytime I see them they are either staring at each other or holding hands.
April 3rd, 2009 at 2:14 am
They are so cute together! I wish they were a real couple! They are so perfect for each other! And he is so in love with her!
April 13th, 2009 at 2:46 pm
you wrote it so well that i doubt that anyone would suspect this isn’t the real story.. i love it!! thanks to your romantic imaginations, you managed to convert those passionate pictures into beautiful words.. omg!
April 14th, 2009 at 10:35 pm
Lorna .. Nooo You’re the SADIST here … This is soo well written .. I believed it
Keep writing please .. I love your writing 
April 14th, 2009 at 11:09 pm
Thank you very much edbellrobkris.
And, Liela, I shall attempt to deliver more torture.
April 15th, 2009 at 12:48 am
twilight is super movie. i have got home and it is super
May 6th, 2009 at 1:14 am
omg he is fit
luv the movie cant wait till
nxt one
but he not in it till the end
May 10th, 2009 at 10:20 am
i love you kristen iam hany and you may love
May 10th, 2009 at 10:23 am
i love you kristen
May 23rd, 2009 at 9:57 pm
wooh the vanity fair vid is very long …lol
i love kristen’s skin, i wish she stop smoking, as it’s not going to do any good for her lovely skin, her skin is perfect as bella …
wish robert will stop smoking too …both of them!.lol
May 27th, 2009 at 1:06 am
From 56:00 minutes – 57:20 she is with Nikki desperately seeking his attention, shouting a little louder trying to do something ’sexy’ in front of him as well as Rob seeking her attention also, the secret little glances from each other! I couldn’t have put your article better, all the information about them it is becoming really hard to not accept these two as a couple. The intimacy, flirting, attention seeking of one another, its irresistible for them both. I am very surprised Rob didn’t push little Nikki out of the way and scooped Kristen in his arms, you could see she was wishing he did and you could also see that this was his plan to do it.
May 31st, 2009 at 4:32 am
is it my imagination or can you see kristen’s hand caress rob’s neck on the VF video(16:03)?
June 5th, 2009 at 2:52 pm
kristen is definitely the one showing more of her playful side here, while rob is like holding back (lorna is right about the “torture” bit hehe). little tiny gestures like pinching a part of Rob’s shirt in 25:36 is telling. In Filipino linggo “nanggigigil” which i can’t seem to think of an English translation for right now. LOL.
makes me wonder, have these two seen this vid? coz it really says a LOT about the chemistry
June 13th, 2009 at 12:36 pm
is this really written by robert pattinson?
July 24th, 2009 at 11:33 am
Who writes theses? Is it random people or workers? Theses r so good. It really makes u want to read a Romance novel on just Rob and kristen.
July 27th, 2009 at 11:39 am
Hey Lorna and everyone…
When my low-latent inhibition kicks in, I watched the whole 1 hour+ vid, and take notes along the way. Just thought I’d share what I thought of this.
An excerpt of http://mayhemonte.livejournal.com/28550.html
16.45 – 16.48: UPDATED
The kiss!
…
See ya in other comments, guys.
Keep it up, Lorna.
July 27th, 2009 at 11:51 am
Ahaha! Write to Vanity Fair! Now! DEMAND for it!
Maybe I should also revisit and do it with another flavor, taking into account your observations. LOL
July 27th, 2009 at 12:05 pm
Haha…
Maybe we can go insane enough and make like a petition or something. LOL.
Go write to VF, Lorna, on behalf of all of us ATK readers. We count on you. LOL.
July 28th, 2009 at 12:32 am
im from mexico, hy:
i love your site lorna
i love all the things but the diaries are the best. seriously,
thanks fot the great posts!
August 3rd, 2009 at 6:10 pm
If you take a look closer, at 17:42 people are watching the photos on a screen, the pictures where kristen is in his arm and at that moment he is actually kissing her on the cheek ^^
August 30th, 2009 at 2:43 am
you are an amazing writer lorna
September 26th, 2009 at 12:49 pm
hey lorna thanks for the vanity fair diariesi love the way you describes what he thinks because ,..he’s a man and in that position he have to think that way,i mean he have to feel that way.
i think you should write a book with all your diaries about themit could be great ,i’ll be the first in line to buy it,great idea,from hatetoloveit;who posted in 23 of feb.and i think you shoukd write something about kristen index finger because that finger is really nutty you know [wet willy,in he’s mouth playing piano with him,that finger is always moving around, thanks lorna . alba lola says bye from sonora mexico.
October 17th, 2009 at 8:31 pm
rewatching this; for the umpteenth time. just renoticed how hugalicious the cast is. is there a more lovexpressive cast out there? shivers down my spine.
and what’s with Kellan being all shirtless? I’m not complaining but damn!
February 4th, 2010 at 8:04 am
i cant stop staring at this lovely pictures… i wonder if they love/like this pictures as much as their followers do? lorna…you are awesome!!! love your diaries so much…looking forward for more