The Kristen Stewart Diaries — Staying at Chateau Marmont with Robert Pattinson
WARNING: This post contains language that you may find offensive. Please use your own discretion.
A Fictitious Entry that Chronicles the Thirst of Kristen Stewart aka Bella Swan for Robert Pattinson aka Edward Cullen
“Rob, I don’t think I can do this.”
Marcus had just left. It was already early morning. He had a show later at Hotel Cafe and apologetically said he had to rest.
While he and Rob had been, like, talking animatedly for a couple of hours, catching up like friends do who haven’t seen each other in a while, I couldn’t help the overwhelming fear that had been gnawing in my gut from growing to encompass my whole body.
I slowly reduced from a quiet listener, like, to a f—ing morose mass of paranoia. My mom had just texted me, like, a couple of times to say that we had been seen and the news is already online. With pictures! F—! My skin was crawling with the thought that people knew we were here, in Chateau Marmont, imagining what the f— what!
I knew that Rob and Marcus tried to include me in the conversation, but, like, I just f—ing couldn’t. I couldn’t. I clutched the bottle of Heineken and raised it to my lips, drinking deeply in a f—ing attempt to relax.
The lyrics of the Minor Threat song Out Of Step began to pound in my head.
I can’t keep up,
Can’t keep up
Can’t keep up
Out of step with the worldCashing in.
Then I dimly heard Marcus saying goodbye, and, I raised my head to reply with a polite smile, and watched him go. A part of me wanted him to stay, so that I could delay the words that I wanted to say.
When Rob had closed the hotel door, I looked away from him and stared out the window as I confessed my uncertainty, “Rob, I don’t think I can do this.”
I felt the couch dip with his weight, then I felt his arms embracing me from behind. F—! I began to blabber, “I just don’t know if I’m ready to do this, Rob. I know, like, we f—ing agreed to do this, but, f—! I’m f—ing scared, man, I’m–”
He turned me around to face him. I clutched him like a spider monkey. He murmured quietly in my ear, “Do you want to call your mom to come and pick you up?”
His ready acquiescence was my undoing. The tears began to flow as I remembered the day that had began with our quiet talk in my house, where he had discussed about how we should take control of the situation and do it on our own terms and not the way others want it to be.
He said he didn’t want to be caught kissing me by some pap, or be in some compromising situation like some schoolboy doing something wrong. He proposed that we make an indirect announcement of our relationship by being seen in the same hotel or venue, where everyone can make the most probable assumptions.
I listened to him in growing horror and fascination. Although I knew he was right, it still didn’t make it the f— easier. This is a f—ing situation that just made me want to scream in frustration and anger. I wanted to f—ing shout to everybody, “Leave me the f— alone! F— off a—-oles!”
But, I knew it was time. More than anything else, the dishonesty was getting to him. I saw how his truthful nature was slowly being tortured by the evasions and half-lies.
We had approached my mom for advice. After hearing us, or, like, more of Rob, she simply said, “How about Chateau Marmont? Everyone goes there. It’s bustling with press, celebrities, agents, managers… And there’s sure to be paps around.”
We had agreed that Rob would go ahead while my mom and I would run errands and then she would drop me off sometime in the afternoon. F—! It’s like my mom and Rob have been hatching this for months! Or they’re on the same f—ing wavelength or something! It’s like the other had barely finished a sentence before the other one adds, like, something! F—!
Now, they’re planning the morning after where I would exit the Chateau Marmont side entrance that all the paps knew so well, and, how Rob should eat out in the patio afterward where the paps can get photos of him so that it’s pretty clear we had both been in Chateau Marmont at the same time. F—!
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Photo: INF
Before I knew it, Rob was striding out the door and my mom was hurrying me to pack something in my backpack so that we could get going.
I had barely wrapped my head around the whole idea when my mom was letting me off at the hospital so that I could sign some stuff for the insurance for Eclipse.
When I exited, the paps were already waiting for me. F—! I quickly entered the dirty pick up truck that my mom was driving, and, released my pent up frustration by giving one of the paps the finger.
As we traversed the LA streets, I plugged my ears with music and began to rock it out when I f—ing caught sight of some paps in a car taking pictures while the pick up was at a stop! F—ing s—t! Couldn’t they give me some, like, f—ing space? Weren’t the f—ing hospital pics enough? And there’s the Chateau Marmont to f—ing contend with! F—, man!
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And then we had sneaked into Bobby Long’s concert and stayed backstage with Marcus, the same way we did when we went to Sam Bradley’s gig in Vancouver. We had tried to exit early, but, I felt the warmth of a flashbulb as I hurried to where Rob was talking to the cab driver.
As the memories continued to fuel the sobs heaving my slight frame, Rob held my trembling body gently, caressing my back continuously in comforting strokes.
After some time passed, the tears abated to hiccups and finally to soft breathing, and, I realized that I didn’t want to leave. I just wanted to stay in his arms. And, whatever happened, I knew he would be right there beside me. We’ll do this together. Like a couple. Like some f—ing modern Romeo and Juliet. I gave a derisive snort through my watery nose.
I lifted my head from his chest and hit him lightly. “I am so not kissing you at The Teen Choice Awards.”
His eyes lit up and he grinned unrepentantly. “We’ll see. Don’t you owe me one for the non-kiss at the MTV?”
The thought of all those people staring while we kissed made me cringe. “I am NOT kissing you! And that’s final!”
“Whatever you say, love.”
I looked at him suspiciously. Rob had a Cheshire cat grin on his face that I didn’t trust.
Lorna Lopez aka ATwilightKiss Notes
Why Chateau Marmont Chateau Marmont is a high profile place in Los Angeles. It’s a good location to be seen in. From celebrity interviews to press conferences to night caps, the venue is a bustling place of activity that should be avoided when you want privacy. Therefore, its choice as a sleepover is suspect, in a nice way.
I’d like to think that Robert Pattinson, who once expressed his ambition to be a spin doctor, persuaded lady love Kristen Stewart to take charge of the spinning out of control situation with him by being “caught” at a highly conspicuous venue, thus, indirectly announcing the existence of a romantic relationship between them.
I find that I like that idea VERY MUCHO! Go Rob! Go Kristen! Do this the way you want to!
Other Details on 06 August 2009 and More I’ve inserted other details such as the confirmed LA airport sighting of Robert Pattinson, the alleged Robert Pattinson house visit, the running of errands by Kristen Stewart with her mom, the confirmed sighting of Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart at the Bobby Long concert, and the morning after detail of Kristen Stewart being photographed exiting the Chateau Marmont, and Robert Pattinson caught at the Chateau Marmont patio restaurant.
The Marcus Foster gig on 07 August 2009 is real, and the Twilight pair had already been spotted attending the concert.
Thanks Thanks to KStew411 for the YouTube link.
Thanks to TwiFans for the link to the Robsten sighting at the Marcus Foster concert.
Thanks to ATK reader bellacullen for the Minor Threat lyrics for Out Of Step
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August 8th, 2009 at 6:54 pm
1st!
hehe, btw the story is so good, you should make a book lorna!
August 8th, 2009 at 6:54 pm
wew Lorna, aargh you’re playing with my mind in a beautiful way, hehe!
btw, here is a link for the marcus concert rpattz and kstew getaway.
[ATwilightKiss edit]
http://community.livejournal.com/kstewartfans/876361.html
August 8th, 2009 at 7:31 pm
Hey Lorna, why ur so good in writing like this. You should write a book and i’m here to support just in case u had a plan;-) ROBSTEN ALL THE WAY!
August 8th, 2009 at 7:49 pm
This brought a smile to my face. I loved it Lornaa! And I`m laughing my butt off with the “LIKES” and the censored words… but you did miss one, though. But otherwise, this is ROFL material. And I think we got the message that they`re dating… LOL.
I tell people that I`m so angry with the paps for not giving them privacy all the time, but that hypocritical. Since, well, I don`t give them privacy while I “stalk” them from across the globe. You`re doing the same, Lorna. At least, I think you are.
Anyways, my friends and I love your site and we are totally spreading the name of ATK in our school. Thanks so much. :-bd. Keep on rocking Robsten land.
August 8th, 2009 at 7:56 pm
Oh my goodness! You’re right! Will edit! Thanks for pointing it out! LOL
And, like I said before, I’m still working out where to draw the line. Something to ponder about… 
And, thanks so much for the shout out!!! 
August 8th, 2009 at 8:21 pm
Awwwwwww! Lorna that was so cute. She’s probably feelings those emotions. I watched the video you attached and when she was in the car and spotted someone taking pictures of her, you could tell she was really annoyed. But it was really cute in her article just the simple gesture of Rob embracing her from behind or comforting her, laying her head on his chest ect. Aww!
August 8th, 2009 at 9:03 pm
great entry..but cant the paps just leave them both alone. geez i feel sorry for them cant get a minute to themselves.
August 8th, 2009 at 9:06 pm
OMG! OMG ! OMG ! Not a hell of a lot of Robsten in almost three months…and now all this Robsten sightings In one crazy week!It’s officially “Robsten week”
I dont think my poor little heart can take in anymore…I’m so throwing a Party tonight.Go Robsten!!!!!!!!
August 8th, 2009 at 10:12 pm
OK, I lost track of the events.. SO supposedly, they were on the same night at the Bobby Long concert, at Hotel Cafe and at Chateau Marmont??? Somebody shed some light please..
August 8th, 2009 at 10:17 pm
Yes, Loreley, all that happened in one day, or, rather, night!
August 8th, 2009 at 10:26 pm
Well then somebody was lieing about that guitar being brought to their room at 8.45pm. Man, I wish the personnel at Chateau Marmont would step in with some juicy bits, but I guess they’d get their butt fired pronto!
August 8th, 2009 at 10:55 pm
naaa. loreley, you got it all wrong. all did not happen at the same day and same night.
August 9th, 2009 at 12:02 am
Yep, this could oficially be named the Robsten Week…
Sabrina, can I go to your party? I’ll bring the music and some fine dance steps, hehe
Lorna, as always, it was awesome, girl… you write emotions in a wonderful way, you’re my hero, and about the paps and the privacy and all that s…t, well, I’m working out where to draw the line, too, and it’s very difficult, keep on your wonderful talent, my friend
August 9th, 2009 at 3:39 am
Wonderful entry as usual…hoping Rob is as sweet and gentle in real life as you wrote…totally agree with a book, I would be the first in line…
August 9th, 2009 at 5:23 am
Great entry.
*sigh* I really wish they were an actual couple. Go Robsten.
August 9th, 2009 at 7:28 am
I agree with everyone, wonderful Lorna!!I want more diary…
Sabrina tt, you’re right: party!! Go robsten!!!!!
August 9th, 2009 at 7:55 am
Hey lorna did u check out the video of kris and rob at x17online.com spotted meeting to have a lunch together. I think we dont need any proof that they really together. I’m so really happy for them. Love u ROBSTEN!
August 9th, 2009 at 7:57 am
look at this vid of them.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=axI2NKH0s9Q
August 9th, 2009 at 9:29 am
OMG!!! YOU HAVE TO LOOK THIS!!!
http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_dRyEQS6OSn0/Sn4RAnOeOYI/AAAAAAAAHtg/UefXu8JhLTQ/s1600-h/qowrh0.jpg
August 9th, 2009 at 9:46 am
http://bauergriffinonline.com/2009/08/rob-and-kristen-rendezvouz.php YOU HAVE TO SEE THESE PICTURES! GO ROBSTEN!
http://x17online.com/gallery/view_gallery.php?gallery=rpattinson080809_X17
THESE TOO!!!
August 9th, 2009 at 9:53 am
grrrr! the paps are going over the top. rob should have crippled those paps w/ his car. and kristen’s bodyguard shud hav this electric thingy and electrocuted each and everyone of them. how did they even manage to get those shots. top view huh? satellite shots, cmon. hehe! even the pentagon are spying on them now. anyways, the biggest fraction of me says thank you. wuhahaha!
August 9th, 2009 at 10:08 am
Mmm… I don’t know why, but I’ve started to think that tomorrow at TCA, they’re going to deny everything about a romantic relationship… just think this for a minute, if paparazzi are going crazy about them now they’re confirmed anything, what’s gonna happen if they make an afirmative statement?
I’m thinking it’s time to let them be, we’ve already have (in a way) the confirmation we wanted, let’s them alone for a while
we’re happy, so… let them be happy to
August 9th, 2009 at 6:41 pm
Oh, Lorna!! The Diaries are my favourite in this site. You write so wel and sweet…
Thank you for all this nice stories that make us dream and believe
August 9th, 2009 at 6:49 pm
Hey! It’s everyboby ready for the TCA??? I’m so nervous!!!! Want to scream!!!! jeje
August 9th, 2009 at 7:28 pm
Lorna, you make MamaStew so much cooler than she already is
Just have to say, I think Kristen’s parents have done a pretty awesome job of bringing up a smart, level-headed and strong girl. Considering she’s their only girl, and she could have turned out as a spoiled drama queen or something LOL but thankfully she isn’t 
and kudos to her parents!
Somehow we can’t help but picture Rob as the calm to K’s ruffled nerves. They are certainly opposites who complement each other well.
Nice one lorna!
August 9th, 2009 at 10:42 pm
hey, your diaries keeps getting better and better. i love it so much ! you know what – you should write a book like the vampire diaries but instead vampires, you put THE ROBSTEN DIARIES. it must be fun, using your creative imagination. maybe you even get royalty, who knows ? haha.
August 10th, 2009 at 12:16 am
Fantastic piece
I enjoy reading the diary entries, Rob’s too!
But seriously, I know the pap’s job is to like take pictures and such but it’s almost verging on stalking! Poor Kristen seriously, no wonder she gave them the finger!
August 10th, 2009 at 5:25 am
i think i already said this but if i havent , i love the diaries !!!!!! cant wait till teen choice , omg i voted everyday , (me=dork) haha …
August 11th, 2009 at 5:39 am
omg i love the diary entires you need to make them a lot more every thing else is ok but i really like these you definetly NEED to make more!!!!!!
October 2nd, 2009 at 3:24 pm
alba says;
Hey lorna demasiado poco….you have to write moreyou always leave me wanting more and more like right now.
Hey like always you are really good .
And i’m sure robsten …/… they are in love forever.[god bless them]from yuma az. bye bye