The Kristen Stewart Diaries — I’m Your Spider Monkey Robert Pattinson
A Fictitious Entry that Chronicles the Thirst of Kristen Stewart aka Bella Swan for Robert Pattinson aka Edward Cullen
Mike was a sight for sore eyes. I had been craving for the comfort of his familiar presence in the same way an addict hungered for his heroin.
As we wandered around Vancouver, I clung to Mikey’s hand with a tenacious grip and kept close. I savored the way my fingers intertwined with his and the pleasurable meeting of our palms. I relished the warmth emanating from his body. There was a quiet contentment in just being with him.
The past couple of weeks have been brutal emotionally and physically. Although I shrugged into Bella’s character with the ease of familiarity, the scenes that we shot recently for New Moon wrung me out as Rob and I acted out the break up scene in the woods repeatedly.
Suddenly, a sorrow seared me with pain and constricted my chest, leaving me gasping as I remembered how Edward’s parting words affected Bella, how her anguish rippled through my body and tore me apart.
The monsters woke with eager ravenous growls.
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The knowledge that Rob was not in Vancouver and had traveled to LA for the weekend was also a balm to my sensitive nerves, and yet, there was a pang of loss at his departure. I don’t know what drove me to let him know that Mike was flying over during the weekend.
A memory of the look in Rob’s eyes during the Juno weekend when Mike had also come up to visit me in Vancouver flashed in my mind’s eye. When we met by chance in one of the after-Juno parties, I resisted the urge to wrap my arms around him to comfort him. Instead, I forced myself to stay seated beside a very tense Mike.
As I struggled between the two of them, another memory washed over me, this time, when I felt torn at the MTV Awards when I had to say the hateful words to the MTV reporter, who wanted to know if Rob and I shared an off-screen romance, and, how I, in effect, negated anything between Rob and I while Mike hovered in the background.
Despite Mike’s presence, the sight of Rob’s sorrow crushed my heart and I fought the tears that threatened to spill from my eyes, my face straining with the effort. I battled with the untoward grief and plastered a smile on my lips as I looked up at Rob (go to 1:12)
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Just like at the MTV Awards, I wanted to say ‘I’m sorry’ for I don’t know what, but, the words strangled in my throat, and were replaced by the small talk of two acquaintances who met unexpectedly in a party.
The monsters playfully jumped on my back, but, I shook them off impatiently, as I shook off the disturbing memory as well.
Seeing that Mike had walked ahead of me by several feet, I suddenly gave a little sprint and playfully leaped onto his back, the position causing both of us to laugh out loud. As the escalating winds whipped my hair back, I felt my spirits rise with it.
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I had spent so many delightful moments in this position while shooting the spider monkey scenes with Rob. I had given him a wet willy on several occasions, soaking my finger with my saliva and then inserting it into his ear, his arms trapped with carrying me on his back, rendering him vulnerable to my teasing disgusting digit.
The spider monkey position also revealed his vulnerable neck several times, and I couldn’t resist nipping and nibbling on his neck often, loving the way Rob would laugh, the sound causing me to giggle along with him.
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My lovely reveries were cut short when I spotted the pap taking pictures of my playful antics with my boyfriend. I immediately clambered off Mike’s back and settled for sedately walking beside him, resisting the urge to give the invasive paparazzi and the invisible snickering monsters the well known message of a middle finger thrust up in the air. Instead, I made a slashing motion with my hand to indicate, ‘Enough!’
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Photo: Photos: Lisa Rose/Nickelodeon
Lorna Lopez aka ATwilightKiss Notes
Michael Angarano in Vancouver Lainey Gossip has photos of Kristen Stewart with boyfriend Michael Angarano in Vancouver over the weekend of 25-26 April 2009.
The break up scene in the woods has allegedly been shot already as well as the cliff diving scene where she sees Edward underwater.
Robert Pattinson in LA While Michael and Kristen were in Vancouver, Lainey Gossip writes that “Robert Pattinson slipped away from Vancouver this weekend for a quick break to LA. Returned back on Sunday night to continue working on New Moon. Soon as he arrived back in Vancouver, he hooked up with Ashley Greene and Rachelle Lefevre at a pub for a few drinks to unwind.”
Thank You Thanks to ATwilightKiss reader Yati for the tip that Michael was in Vancouver over the weekend.
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April 28th, 2009 at 11:06 am
I’m trying hard not to care that they look happy while Rob looked unemotional at the airport (glad to be away maybe) .. it’s not working =(
Curious that Rob left for LA the weekend that Mike was up in Vancity.. But the other pictures LG posted seemed .. I don’t know .. contrived. It’s like they are “parading” around Vancity. I’m trying to see logic but it doesn’t make sense to me.
April 28th, 2009 at 11:14 am
Err.. God. What happened with kristen? Is she so scare about the rumours?
And wow yeah edward leaves bella with jacob: robert leaves kristen with michael. Duh. It’s like everything between three of them had been being choreographed :p
April 28th, 2009 at 11:15 am
I do have to say though, that I like that Michael looks happy. I’m a Robsten fan and all.. but I feel bad for him being stuck in the middle. I have no doubt that he loves Kristen but it must suck to be in a relationship like theirs right now. The last few pics I’ve seen of him, he looked unhappy, uncomfortable and generally p*ssed off. But the vancity ones last weekend, they looked happy .. and YOUNG! Like two kids horsing around town.
My heart goes out to Rob though .. I can’t even imagine what he must be feeling. He’s obviously trying to control his feelings (see video #2 of ET’s coverage of NM)… I can almost hear the NR rumors starting again .. sigh..
It seems our Bella is in the middle of an “eclipse” .. =)
April 28th, 2009 at 11:38 am
it’s kristen that’s making him feel this way i think less of her i’m sorry i think she’s playing both guys..she really comes across to me that she’s in love w/rob i know he likes her but i guess not the pics from vancouver show it all..kristen don’t eye sex rob and flirt or whatever your doin if you love your bf (not cool)
as for rob he needs to get over kristen find someone else and move on he dosen’t need someone like that. I’m all for robsten but after seeing the pics it’s a let down.
April 28th, 2009 at 2:39 pm
This situation is really weird… think about it. MA appeard in Vancouver, Rob suddenly went to Los Angeles. And I don’t know why I am thinking this, but – looking at those pictures – he did not seem like happy in the airport…
About the KS/MA photos: One word, I thought first of all: ‘unnatural’.
April 28th, 2009 at 3:06 pm
i don’t know it’s the latest article of ted or not. but have you read that yet? this is the link
http://www.eonline.com/uberblog/the_awful_truth/b120806_do-me_meter_gyllenspoon_20.html
but no evidence/pic to proof it. duhh. how can i believe it 100%? (but i still believe) it was crazy
April 28th, 2009 at 5:39 pm
al, I have read the article and all of the 888 comments. Jesus… it’s unbeliveble… poor Rob and poor Kristen.
I don’t like all the games like this… 
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I don’t like this game.
April 28th, 2009 at 9:13 pm
Here’s a quote from exotkprincess, a frequent commentor on Ted’s board..”A three headed goat would have looked more natural.” Referring to the recent MA/KS photoshoot. I am totally agreeing with this statement because how blatantly were they trying to show a strong front in their relaysh for a couple who prides on privacy? Come on, she was completely taunting the photogs and the public? This is not very Kristen like at all and yes I agree very “unnatural”. If their relaysh is so strong as she have stated numerous times, then why put up a visual front like that? And also I am sick of people bashing her. We all do not know what really is going on but we are speculating…yes speculating, that something did happen and/or something is happening with Robsten. Why do people automatically take sides of Rob? They are both young and are both adults so I’m sure they are mature enough to know that they are both guilty with alluding/acting/feeling on their on and off screen relaysh. A picture can say a thousand things, but in Hollywood it can say something completely different than what is portrayed. Staging photos happens.
April 28th, 2009 at 9:20 pm
This story was to be kinda fun but it was enough to make me feel like crying. Real stuff is going on between R and K and one day K will open up and not listen to everyone who tells her it isn’t. Hope R is still waiting in the wings…this has to hurt bad all around.
April 28th, 2009 at 10:46 pm
I agree with Vico1 .. pics do seem unnatural =(
What’s going on??
April 29th, 2009 at 1:43 am
Yeah, i agree with you vico1. But we just can speculating what is happened between three of them. Although kris often say she really loved mike, but we don’t know about deep inside her heart. Only she who knows about her truly heart. Maybe her little heart said another things? We don’t know…
Oh yeah however i still agree with vico1
April 29th, 2009 at 11:25 pm
Robsten will not happen,now I’m convinced…
June 13th, 2009 at 3:49 pm
it would have been so awesome if the paparazzi took a pic of her and her middle finger lol